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I have given up on life. I have no hope left. Everywhere, I see darkness. I don't know what to do. I just don't have any idea about what to do. Today, I engaged in a ferocious fight with my younger brother Shaurya and I attacked him violently. He started bleeding and I started crying. When I was a child, we used to play around as kids. Today, what happened was that I was listening to songs on my mobile in full volume and laughing incessantly, my brother came from behind and he took away my mobile. 

I told him to give my mobile back. When he didn't give back, I attacked him violently. I lost control, and attacked him like a beast. My fingers pained afterwards. In an incident in Bengaluru, I had beaten the shit out of Kannadiga boys and same thing happened. In fact, while playing cricket in childhood, my left hand's forefinger was broken. That didn't cause me much pain. 

So, what's the point of all this? Actually, I tried to upload a video but it just took so long that I had to withdraw. I terminated the process and had to cancel uploading of the video. 

I started daydreaming, hallucinating, suddenly, out of nowhere, this thought came into my mind that some woman was noticing me very patiently and somehow, I could see that she was looking at my forearms, and I assumed that this woman was aiming to claim the property on which I was working with my father at that place. Actually, to put things in perspective, I live here with my family here in Dharamshala, Himachal Pradesh. Proper place is Yol Cantt, it's military area. These people have come from different place and are belonging to different backgrounds. These people took every piece of land. Now, I am not so familiar with the people around because I was on the way when all the property was sold off by our ancestors. 

These included all sorts of people, Jatts, Chaudhary, Rawat, Patial, Gurjar,. One fine day, this old lady whose only son is working as an officer in Indian Air Force, accused my mother of stealing the electricity meter from her home. All this time, I didn't care but suddenly, these emotions came running to my mind and I felt overburdened. I had to vent out my anger and frustration on someone. I started visualising different things in my mind, and thought of myself as being inferior and the sense of being cheated was also there. Whenever I felt something funny in my thought patterns, I started screaming and laughing uncontrollably. 

So, when one woman was looking at my forearms, I could sense that this woman wanted our ancestral property. I got afraid to an extent that I started to flummox and experience serious episodes of anxiety. It was like trauma, as if something is sticking heavily in your mind and weighing you down. 

What can you take away from this? Youth, just understand that everyone out there is after your money. People don't care about what you do. It's your life. People with big eyes (Pandits) will observe your behaviour. These people prepare Ghosh and were expelled by Muslims. Today, these people are living on our lands. This land belongs to Rajputana. We Rajputs have fought for this country. We had shed blood, even today, why people call us Bana, because of the sacrifice we have done for them. 

Today, when my brother and father came to leave me in Delhi, a daily wage labourer, a Muslim youth, touched my father's feet to show his respect and seek blessings. These Pandits have so much attitude and arrogance, that's the reason these people are finding it hard to look away. This old lady who's living very close by accused my mother of stealing electricity meter, and I just lost control. One must always believe in their abilities to grow and become better. 

My current state is worse than that of a beggar. No one is ready to give me a job. Employers keep asking why did I leave Tech Mahindra. I tell them, that I had my reasons. I couldn't take calls for the rest of my life. It was not something I was comfortable with. I just had to leave. Plus, the supervisor made me feel like shit. Living with him drained me financially, physically, emotionally and mentally. I wasn't prepared for that. I just got impressed and imitated his actions and behaviour. Started drinking liquor, smoking, and even dropped cab facility and used my own bike to travel to office. It just became unbearable after a point, because no matter what I did, the person just didn't feel comfortable with it. At the same time, one person from Bihar was managing all the things pretty much fine. He was earning a meagre wage of 13k and was doing just fine. I couldn't manage to save anything out of whatever I had earned. I was earning 30k and lost every ounce of it. I chased girls, fell into their trick, and just lost control. I spiralled, started imagining worst case scenarios and even thought about everything in a negative way. I kept talking to myself, even when people were around. This self-talk was positive at all and made me feel like an idiot. Sometimes, people around forced me to stop talking but at one point, they all became familiar with my habit. I was just living like a robot. Life isn't that easy, man. Yeah, you cry, you weep, you are fucking fucked everytime by everyone, people around are looking to fuck you. My hostel warden had fucked a student under the influence of alcohol. Today, I am running after pussy and no one is supporting me. My parents are telling me to stop objectifying women and treat them as Godesses, they want me to be a nice man who treats woman like a princess. I just don't know man, where did this mismatch came from. They aren't supporting me financially. I have lost control and hope. Everything looks shattered and out of control. 

I am just happy watching cricket. Because I think I have lost everything. People are so cruel, manipulative, that even after living on your land, they will show you eyes and treat you like shit. An innocent man like me would never care about money, but always keep self-respect and respect at the forefront. Greedy and hungry people talk nicely in front of you to get their work done. Those who talk clearly and with conviction are more trusted and respected. 

I am a Rajput and I never lie. I understand that I may have formed a negative opinion about women in general because of the events that unfolded in Delhi in the last 1 year. But, these are my thoughts. Yeah, this is what I think. After watching Gulaal Movie directed by Anurag Kashyap, I couldn't help but think that brothers having sisters are sheer adsholes and completely useless. When Ransa was killed by that shit head( having no hair on his chest), I just cried, literally. Now, people are telling me that movies are for entertainment. No, I don't think so. It's not porn, it's a movie, that's certified by the CBFC. When movies are being seen by childrens and adults, it certainly leaves an impression. Not everyone views things in the same way. If a child will look at a toy, he will feel attracted towards it and would want to possess it. If a grown up man would see that you, he would probably find it interesting to run his car over it. So, these directors are displaying persona of certain influential personalities, that are of matter. History isn't created by speaking. It requires, sweat, blood and hard work. 

Our ancestors have laid blood for this land, even today, close to 10 families, having childrens and elderly people, are living in our vicinity, using advanced equipment just to make us see it, showing us eyes thinking that they are smart and intelligent. That all is acceptable to a certain point. Patial went to court and these people will wealth are just all over us. These people can hire a trained lawyer to make us middle class people coming from reputable defence background annoyed. Certainly, these court cases keep hanging and no results are declared. 

In most cases, these people's kids have gone on to become world class officers. So, you get the idea. 10 families, this is not a small number. Everyone has ample land, and these people keep looking at what's left of us. This is disgusting. So, I just think and get afraid, way too afraid, thinking that these people would become succesful and there will be no place left for innocent people like me to live. I mean , I couldn't mingle with people, couldn't understand office politics, but how can someone just look and do nothing when feeling threatened. I always felt that I am appearing cool by playing songs loudly on my phones and roaming in shorts and free clothes, I felt as if I am amusing these people, the next thing I know, these people are not letting the road become concrete that leads to the National Highway. During rainy season, all the water comes rushing towards our home and just becomes way too much for me to bear it. As a child, I didn't mind because I was not sensible enough to know. I just went to school, did my homework, obeyed my parent's instructions, and life was cool. Back then, we brothers used to splash water around and our shoes would get completely wet, and we wouldn't mind but you get the idea, unless you strike, people start forcing themselves upon you.

The thing is, when people get something for cheap, they think that they can just claim everything else that's remaining. Inside, these people are shit scared despite earning lakhs and maybe even crores, because these people are greedy and their intention, their thinking is screwed. I could tell that these people are banging around in their homes, while their kids are being attended by some unknown woman, who isn't taking care of sanitation and other things. Despite so many wrong things, I am a big brother, and I see Lord Shree Ram in me, I always think that people should get more. I think good about these people. But, see what happens. My own flesh and blood, my royal brother, gets beaten, and next thing is know, I am crying like a baby. Call it whatever you want, but this is bromance. 

The Indian Defence Forces have certainly become more sophisticated and elegant. Today, people respect the uniform worm by these women. The smell that's surrounding the air where these men are performing their duty, feels like heavenly. These men, made of steel and gold, are destroying terrorist organization, woman's too are equally contributing. 

These Pandits with big eyes are observing everything and banging around. Shastras are not being written anymore by Chanakya. But, certainly, men and women belonging to Brahmin community are moving towards the wrong direction. These people are highly in demand among Muslim men. Kerala Story depicts the horrendous nature of these traps laid for Hindu Women. These women are befriended by these men and later took to unidentical places. 

These Muslims are scattered in every part of India and are watching Parizaad and are praising the efforts of Pakistani and foreign muslim celebrities. These Muslims eat and shit in this country, but feel disrespected in standing up for the Indian National Anthem, Verma chicks are leaving Yuzvendra Chahal and running after people bearing weird Muslim surname like Buddo and Farooq. These people bearing surname Yousef bow down to Prophet Muhammad. And guys, oh guys, these Muslims just sit anywhere, in the office, take long breaks without informing supervisors, and I am scolded everytime for not mingling. Just wonder.

One day, I got afraid, I saw so many Muslims who had gathered in Tech Mahindra canteen. These motherfuckers looked at me in a way that made me fucking shit my pants. Just imagine, a Hindu Rajput boy, in his early twenties, nearly shitted his pants. But, ironically, some Muslims suggested me to eat Biryani and these people just promote Jihad and Islam. However, women in this community is treated like shit, couldn't even show their face, these women are fucked by pretty much everyone, and despite this, these Muslims dream about fucking Sara Tendulkar and other reputed celebrities. But, honestly, I think, Muslims of Kashmir, these people are bluent, straigtcoming. You get the idea. These people don't hide behind a fake persona, it is what it is. But I think everyone should be treated equally, when I am taking a break, everyone is screaming where the fuck did Aditya Singh Thakur disappeared, while these men are puncturing girls in the office parking area. I see a girl with a boy, the girl stares intensely at my lens, that I feel like this chick is going to kill me, or probably break open my eyes and break my bones and skull, I fucking look away and run for my life like a pussy. Yeah, I run like a pussy. 

I don't know, man. Even Shivaji and Sheela, who were my HR in past companies, I said something that was in my mind to these people, these people saw it as an insult, like they don't know good English or whatever, they are promoting regional talent, something on similar terms, and these people wouldn't mind showing me the way out of the company. Here I was, dreaming about ways to live the American Dream. Men like Rishi Sunak are chanting Jai Shree Ram and ruling UK, chilling around with Akshata Murthy, and these people are always looking for the best. 

Who isn't? But, at what cost? Why would you study in IIT and join Civil Services? Why would you attain education in India and work for United Fucking States of America. Don't you like India? If you don't like, why are you just running away. This country is not a piece of land. People are still living in their dreams, chanting shitty things like Bengaluru has become crowded, Kashmir is Switzerland, and blah blah. Everyday, 1234 accidents occur in India and 462 people lose their lives. States like Tamil Nadu and Uttar Pradesh report the maximum amount of fatalities. People should be concerned about things like these. Youth is watching useless content online and not understanding the value of time. I myself am certainly not proud of my mindset, but still, I am trying to bring around a change, by bring forward unfiltered information, my personal experiences, that you wouldn't find anywhere on Google, or even on the Dark Web. Yeah baby, that's because I am your big bro and I care about you. You are the youth, when you are shaking your dick in the toilet and thinking that your Mamma isn't watching you, she certainly knows what you are doing, she kept in her womb for like 9 months and she feeded you, treated you like a baby boy, and yeah, she just knows. But, the point is, we shouldn't be hiding the semen that's released after ejaculation in the bedsheets in the universities, be upfront about your motive, crime rate will come down. 

Thinking, improve your thinking. I don't expect you to change and become Batman from tomorrow but small habits can bring about a change. I didn't mind about anything when I was kid, my parents were my life, but today, I get annoyed, I get worried about what might happen, I see online that Bhabhi is banging unknown men, Devar and Muslim is going in the ShamShaan to have sex with the bodies that are digged underneath. Didn't you know? These Muslims had sex with dead woman, daughters, and in ancient times, these Muslims punctured daughters and mothers of Hindu families, when father and son watched their mothers and sisters getting fucked. 

These things are happening even today. The creators are openly showing premier content on OTT platforms like AltBalaji, SonyLiv, Shemaroo, and other digital streaming platforms. My friends tell me this, I have no idea about it. But, I just let it out so that you can become aware about it. We cannot change the past but we should be alert and vigilant so that these incidents aren't repeated anymore. If you didn't learn from your mistake, you are doing wrong. If you repeat a same mistake again and again, then you are a donkey. This doesn't apply to you masturbating. It's better to go in the toilet or use a tissue paper to wipe off your dick than starting to fuck your sister. In Madrasas in Hindustan, these Muslims kids are taught about ways to puncture women in a strange way, that produces maximum babies. These Muslims see women as women producing babies and nothing else. Life is living hell is for these women. If it weren't for the Indian Defence Forces, these bastards would have penetrated everything. These Muslims have been found having sex with cows, sheep, pigs, dogs and buffaloes. This just doesn't apply to Muslims. But certainly, these people brought this everywhere. Earlier, rapes and heinous crimes didn't used to happen. These Muslims desecrated and chopped women in different parts and dumped it in pits and other places where no one could find it. NIA, CBI, Special Task Forces and numerous other counter surveillance teams are monitoring the situation regularly to detect these violent offenders. These Muslims learn everything in India in Madrasa and then these people target innocent civilians, women, and Indian Security Forces. These people have hair everywhere and the forces are kept wondering, from where the attack might happen. Thanks to the Indian Defence for protecting us from these animals. These people have no brain of their own and except APJ Abdul Kalam, these people have produced defective products. If these people had withdrawn on time, these these anti-national activities wouldn't have taken place in the first place. 

This Muslims watch Oppenheimer and show Hindus that they read Gita. These people eat beef and openly puncture women in their households, offices. I am equally concerned about Pandits. Pandit women are getting mature way too earlier, these women are very fashionable and are flaunting their ass and boobs in a very inappropriate way that's arousing gentlemen and keeping ladies keep coming for more. The moment I open Instagram, it feels like everything's just become pornhub. Fucking women are proudly showing their body, thinking that they will get famous and more followers. These Americans certainly need to exercise restrictions over the content that is being circulated because otherwise, soon enough, everything would become so horrendous that even Amit Dubey Ji wouldn't be able to contain cybercrimes. Obviously, people living in India are uploading this content, and this is happening because these girls and women are getting influenced by Western culture and forgetting their roots. 

Dress like a queen. In Rajasthan, some Rajput women still have some respect. These women dress in traditional outfits and don't openly show their bodies to attract popularity and attention. But, pretty much, entire Bharat, bearing 160 crore population, has experienced something violent. People are watching Savdhaan India. Pretty much every Indian youth has scene violence against men, which portrays women in a negative light. This isn't independence. Women have become too modern that they are just not caring about how they dress and what they do. Why would I even care to tell you this? It doesn't benefit me. When I am saying that brothers are puncturing their sisters, the idea came from a movie ( Gulaal). Everything to see, the visuals, they leave an impression on your mind. How can someone say that these are just portrayals and nothing ever happened in reality, who the fuck knows about what's real and what's take, who can tell the difference between content that's written by Me or by Chatgpt, who can tell that the content is not edited, and God knows what else. AI has enabled cybercriminals to adopt technology in a way that's making it very simple to defraud people. People are using UPI, without seeing anything, everyone's embracing technology, surnames bearing names that would scare the shit out of a fucking holy cow, are being used as bank account names. When something wrong happens and you approach SBI, these employees are having lunch. When you see appear in an interview, idiots who are banging their sisters are taking your interview. How do I know this? I just know. Let's just say that someone made me form this opinion. 

What the actual fuck? Whatever you consume, shapes you. When you are eating an animal, you are getting negative emotions. You will become more cruel and aggresive. Isn't that's why you see stuff like animals growing on muslims. Muslims are so fucking weird that at one point I thought that I would get fucked by someone in my office. Despite the advancement in the modernization of the armed forces, these Muslims are fucking still dreaming about making Bharat an Islamic nation. These Muslims who are living in India aren't contributing anything. These men are just puncturing women and working in bike repair centre, cutting hair, working as a butcher ( flaunting style and passion in cutting open the neck of the voiceless animal). And then, these Muslims want their own fucking dress. Isn't the Mosques doing enough. In temples, defence personnel are employed. When you visit Vaishno Mata in Katra, CRPF personnel are protecting the space. Who the fuck knows what's happening inside Mosques? Who the fuck knows that teachings are these Muslims gettings. And when, everyone is asking you to just stand up when Indian National Anthem plays up, you start saying that Bharat is not our mother, who's your mother than? What the actual fuck? Why would someone not stand up when national anthem is playing. Isn't this unimaginable. What is it that these Muslims want? That's just the tip of the iceberg. I did try to upload a video but YouTube didn't allow me to upload it mentioning that there's pornographic content involved in it. Otherwise, a lot of you would have been benefitted out of it. 

It's better late than sorry. I don't see any thing transformative happening because the pace at which all this is happening is baffling but I certainly would want the mothers and daughters living in this country to feel safe and respected. Jai Rajputana! Veer Bhogya Vasundhara!

Respect women! Be a force for good. Jai Hind!